Little Demons
I am beginning to think that there are only so many ideas in the world. I was talking to a friend today, and we were both experiencing the same state of mind. After you spend some time with questions of God, existence, reincarnation, religion, faith, evolution, socialism, democracy and all the –isms and –schisms that ramble along the rails of language, you start to realize that there are only a handful of truths and non-truths in this world and history is simply a textbook rearranging them under various “factual” skeletons.
It makes me think of walls and large boulders blocking roads. I have reached moments while thinking about an idea, where after running through a tangle of barbed thoughts, thoughts shouting, whispering, tugging, pushing and glaring at each other, I am cornered at the same spot from where I unleashed these demons. Everything works in circles. From the autocracies of feudalists, you came to the blaring ideals of the democrats, and return( for a short while) to a collective autocracy(socialism), redouble, stop at the love child of democracy and self-imposed freewill(capitalism), and after passing the signpost of the Great Depression, come to the understanding that maps are made to be modified—so let’s all jump consistently between as many roads as we possibly can. The Red banner(the “other” God) held that each revolution brings a new set of ideals, changing the course of history. Ahem. I respectfully beg to differ.
The “ultimate” communist society would be an extended version of small “communist” societies that have existed since the days of stone and sparks. They call it “communism”, and the entire world, blindly lashes out against the word as if they’ve pressed their fingers on a pulsating vein. But “communism” with its focus on collective means to lead to first collective, then individual benefits, was very much present in the mind of the man of the Stone Age, when he worked with other men and animals to find food.It sat in its armchair, silent and sedate, but wise.
We are told that the need to grow food led to the establishment of societies, but I would think it was the exact opposite, if anything. “Society”, with its emphasis on the interaction of a species within itself to structure a way of life, lives from Day One. If we go by evolution, the dinosaurs were the first Marxian equivalents. With the exception of my Nietzchean friend, Tyranosaurus Rex, they lived together and moved about in herds to help each other in their survival. I do not, of course, mean ballroom dancing and courtrooms as the defining features of their society but simply the presence of an interactive structure in their way of life.
If we go by the Adam-n-Eve scenario, their society was in each other for the two of them. But it was, undoubtedly there. All history records, is a growth in the number of social interactors in the species we call “Man”. Species interact with other species and have interacted for as far back as the evolutionists/theologians/politicians/random observers want to take us. And we interact with an ultimate aim to benefit our own selves. Our social structures through time, are based on very selfish motives. Though communism may take pride in establishing a structure where everybody works for everybody, if translated, it means, everybody working for everybody to save their own selfish selves. Man is not an individual. He is the rearrangement and realignment of the same ideas and the same thoughts that every other man in his species and his time embodies. It is precisely because he knows that he is not an individual, that he is selfish. And dangerously so. He will die protecting his claim to this sham. Because the day he comes to terms with his own knowledge of his lack of individuality, he dies anyway. One has to die to be reborn.
Similarly, God. The same religions, the same ideas. One God, no God, multiple Gods, Female Gods. Something like Writer’s Block obstructs me from thinking of “God” outside of atheism and theism and pantheism and agnosticism and all the other “isms”. Either we’ve thought of every kind of God already, or we’ve been thinking about the same “God” in circles that sometimes overlap. Every man on Earth is essentially an agnostic. We give definitions to God and then believe or non-believe in him based on those definitions. We spin our own webs. We need a bird that knows its way through these cerebral webs. We need a divine bird. One that kisses the web as it shreds it apart.
Nietzche said it right. We need new Gods.
And words are starting to strangle me. I need a new language.
It makes me think of walls and large boulders blocking roads. I have reached moments while thinking about an idea, where after running through a tangle of barbed thoughts, thoughts shouting, whispering, tugging, pushing and glaring at each other, I am cornered at the same spot from where I unleashed these demons. Everything works in circles. From the autocracies of feudalists, you came to the blaring ideals of the democrats, and return( for a short while) to a collective autocracy(socialism), redouble, stop at the love child of democracy and self-imposed freewill(capitalism), and after passing the signpost of the Great Depression, come to the understanding that maps are made to be modified—so let’s all jump consistently between as many roads as we possibly can. The Red banner(the “other” God) held that each revolution brings a new set of ideals, changing the course of history. Ahem. I respectfully beg to differ.
The “ultimate” communist society would be an extended version of small “communist” societies that have existed since the days of stone and sparks. They call it “communism”, and the entire world, blindly lashes out against the word as if they’ve pressed their fingers on a pulsating vein. But “communism” with its focus on collective means to lead to first collective, then individual benefits, was very much present in the mind of the man of the Stone Age, when he worked with other men and animals to find food.It sat in its armchair, silent and sedate, but wise.
We are told that the need to grow food led to the establishment of societies, but I would think it was the exact opposite, if anything. “Society”, with its emphasis on the interaction of a species within itself to structure a way of life, lives from Day One. If we go by evolution, the dinosaurs were the first Marxian equivalents. With the exception of my Nietzchean friend, Tyranosaurus Rex, they lived together and moved about in herds to help each other in their survival. I do not, of course, mean ballroom dancing and courtrooms as the defining features of their society but simply the presence of an interactive structure in their way of life.
If we go by the Adam-n-Eve scenario, their society was in each other for the two of them. But it was, undoubtedly there. All history records, is a growth in the number of social interactors in the species we call “Man”. Species interact with other species and have interacted for as far back as the evolutionists/theologians/politicians/random observers want to take us. And we interact with an ultimate aim to benefit our own selves. Our social structures through time, are based on very selfish motives. Though communism may take pride in establishing a structure where everybody works for everybody, if translated, it means, everybody working for everybody to save their own selfish selves. Man is not an individual. He is the rearrangement and realignment of the same ideas and the same thoughts that every other man in his species and his time embodies. It is precisely because he knows that he is not an individual, that he is selfish. And dangerously so. He will die protecting his claim to this sham. Because the day he comes to terms with his own knowledge of his lack of individuality, he dies anyway. One has to die to be reborn.
Similarly, God. The same religions, the same ideas. One God, no God, multiple Gods, Female Gods. Something like Writer’s Block obstructs me from thinking of “God” outside of atheism and theism and pantheism and agnosticism and all the other “isms”. Either we’ve thought of every kind of God already, or we’ve been thinking about the same “God” in circles that sometimes overlap. Every man on Earth is essentially an agnostic. We give definitions to God and then believe or non-believe in him based on those definitions. We spin our own webs. We need a bird that knows its way through these cerebral webs. We need a divine bird. One that kisses the web as it shreds it apart.
Nietzche said it right. We need new Gods.
And words are starting to strangle me. I need a new language.
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